Chichi no kao o shiranai watashi niwa, haha wa "Haha to chichi o kaneta ryoushin " de atta.

Watashi no haha wa 26 no wakasa de kafu to natta.

Hitoichibai kishou ga tsuyokatta. Tsuyokunakereba, watashi to watashi no ane no niji o daite dokuritsu shite yukenakatta kara de aru.

Haha no otokomasari no kishou wa, tabun ni watashi no uchi ni mo utsutteita.

Watashi mo mata, yo no aranami to tatakatte dokuritsu shite yuketa no wa, haha no otokomasari no kishou o miuchi ni nagarekomashiteita kara nano de arou.

Haha ga wakagoke ni natta touji, shinseki no mono ga haha ya watashitachi shimai no yukusue o anjite,

"Kodomo futari tsukamaete onnade hitotsu de shoubai mo umaku ikumai. Ane no hou wa houkou ni demo dashite shotai o chiisaku shitara dou ka"

"Mou ippen youshi o moroutara --"

Iroiro to shinsetsu ni chuukoku o suru no da ga, kachiki na haha wa,

"Watashi ga hatarakeba, oyako sannin dou ni ka yatte yukemasu"

Sou itte ketsuzen to shite mi o ko ni shite, watashitachi no tame ni hataraitekureta no de aru.

Sou itte iji o hari, haha wa dono you na toki ni demo shinrui no enjo wa kowanakatta.

Ano toki shinrui no iu toori ni shite itara, watashi nado imagoro, kono you ni shite e zanmai no kyouchi ni irareta ka douka wakaranai.

Ikka no kiki ni nozonde, danko to shita yuuki o shimeshita haha no tsuyoi ishi to, watashitachi ni taisuru fukai aijou koso, toutoi "Haha no sugata" de aru to, watashi wa itsumo haha no kenage na sugata o omoute kansha shite iru.

Hachaya o shite ita watashi no mise niwa, ocha o kansou saseru tame no ookina hoiroba ga atta.

Ocha ga shimeru to ikenai no de, oriori hoiro ni kakete ocha o kansou saseru no de aru ga, kono hikagen ga nakanaka mutsukashikatta.

Kodomo no koro yonaka ni futo me o samasu to, misesaki de KOTOKOTO oto ga shite, haha ga yonaka ni okite hoiro o kaketeiru yousu ga kikoeru no de atta.

PWUN to koubashii nioi ga nema ni made tadayotte kite, watashi wa sono nioi o kaginagara futatabi utouto to nemuri ni ochita mono de aru.

Parapara, parapara to, shimetta ocha o houjiteiru oto o, nani ka konoha demo furu oto ni kikinagara .

Watashi no 19 no toki, tonari kara hi ga dete watashi no ie mo maruyake to natte shimatta.

Nani hitotsu hakobidasu hima mo naku ruishou no wazawai ni atte shimatta no de aru ga, kushin shite egaita shukuzu ya e no sankou hin mo ushinatte shimatta toki niwa, sasuga no watashi mo azen to shite shimatta.

Haha wa kazai ya kimono no yaketa no wa sukoshi mo oshigarazu, watashi no e ni kanshita shinajina no shoushitsu o itaku oshindekureta.

"Kimono ya ie no dougu wa hataraite okane o daseba modoru ga, e no shinajina wa nido to te nihairanushi, onaji mono o nido to kakenu kara oshii na"

Watashi wa haha no sono kotoba o kiita toki, e ya sankou hin o ushinatta koto o sukoshi mo oshii to omowanakatta.

Haha no kono kotoba o eta koto ga dorehodo chikarazuyoku kanji, dorehodo ureshikatta koto ka shirenakatta no de aru.

Haha wa shikashi, kaji no dageki ni makezu, Takakura no Takoyakushi ni utsutte, yahari hachaya o tsuzukenagara watashitachi no mendou o mi, sono toshi no aki ni ane o rippa ni take e yomezuketa no de aru.

Haha to watashi no futarikiri no seikatsu ni naru to, haha wa nao issou no hatarakiburi o misete,

"Omae wa ie no koto o seidemo yoi. Isshou kenmei ni e o kakinasare ya"

to ittekure, watashi ga kenmei ni natte e o kaiteiru no o mite, kokorohisoka ni tanoshinde irareta yousu de aru.

Watashi wa haha no okage de, seikatsu no kurou o kanjizu ni e o inochi to mo tsue to mo shite, sore to tatakaeta no de atta.

Watashi o unda haha wa, watashi no geijutsu made mo unde kureta no de aru.

Sorede watashi wa haha no soba ni sae ireba, hoka ni nani ga naku to mo koufuku de atta.

Ryokou mo dekinakatta. Tomarigake no ryokou nado haha o nokoshite, totemo dekinakatta no de aru.

Shouwa 16 nen no Chuushi iki wa, sono you na wake de watashi ni totte wa hatsutabi to itte ii mono de aru.

Watashi ga 10 sai kurai no koro de aru.

Haha wa Sanjou Nawate o kudatta tokoro ni aru shinrui no ie e itte rusu no ori, ie de ane to futari de haha no kaeri o matteita ga, nakanaka ni kaerarenakatta no de, watashi wa shinapai no amari, kasa o motte Naramonochou kara Shijouoohashi o watatte, haha o mukae ni itta no de aru ga, sono toki wa yuki ga futte samui ban de atta.

Kodomo no watashi wa nakitai omoi de, youyaku ni shinrui no ie no mon made tadoritsuku to, choudo haha ga soko o derareru tokoro de atta.

Watashi ga, "Okaasan" to, nakigoe de sakebu to,

haha wa, "Ou, mukae ni kitekureta no ka, sore wa sore wa samui no ni naa" to itte, watashi no kajikanda tsumetai ryoute ni iki o kake mondekureta ga, watashi wa sono toki omowazu namida o nagashite shimatta.

Haha no me nimo namida ga ukandeita. Nandemonai koukei de aru ga, watashi niwa isshou wasurerarenai mono de aru.

Watashi no seisaku no uchi "Bosei" o atsukatta mono ga kanari aru ga, doremo koremo, haha e no tsuibo kara egaita mono bakari de aru.

Haha ga nakunatte kara wa, watashi wa heya ni haha no shashin o kakageteiru ga, watashi mo musuko no Shoukou mo, ryokou ni yuku toki, kaette kita toki niwa, kanarazu sono shashin no shita e itte aisatsu o suru koto ni shiteiru.

"Okaasan itte mairimasu"

"Okaasan kaette mairimashita"

Bunten ni shuppin suru e demo, sono ta no shuppinga demo, kanarazu ie o hakobidasu mae niwa, haha no shashin no mae ni oku no de aru.

"Okaasan. Kondo wa konna e ga dekimashita.-- dou deshou ka"

-- to, mazu haha ni misete kara, soto e dasu no de aru.

Watashi wa isshou, watashi no e o haha ni mite itadakitai to omotteiru.

(2006. 7.15)