____ kun iyoiyo oyakusho zutome o sareru you ni natta soude makoto ni kekkou desu. Goryoushin mo sadameshi oyorokobi no koto to omoimasu. Tokoro de otegami ni yoru to, yakunin to shite hitsuyou na kokoroe o kikasero to iu gochuumon desu ga, fukou ni shite iwayuru yakunin seikatsu no keiken o motanai watakushi niwa, toutei kankai yuueijutsu sonota tejika ni oyaku ni tatsu you na koto o moushiageru shikaku ga arimasen kara, tada heiso gaibu kara yakunin shokun ni sesshoku shite kanjita kotogara o matomete gosankou no tame omimi ni iretai to omoimasu. Mochiron moushiagetai koto wa keijuu iroiro aru no desu ga, bengijou tsugi no sankajou ni matometa ue, sonogo ni chuushaku meita koto o kakimasu. Ika nimo daigaku no houritsu sensei rashii na, to waratte wa ikemasen.

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Dai-1 jou oyoso yakunin taran to suru mono wa, banji ni tsuki narubeku hiroku katsu asaki rikai o eru koto ni tsutomu beku, kyouai naru tokushu no kotogara ni tokubetsu no kyoumi o idakite koreni chuui o shuuchuu suru ga gotoki koto naki o yousu.

Kimira wakai katagata wa tokaku risou ni torawarete isshou o aru shu no kotogara ni sasagetai, sore niwa yakunin to shite jibun no konomu aru shu no kotogara ni chikara o shuuchuu shite sono michi no senmonteki tatsujin ni naritai, to iu fuu ni kangaegachi de aru ga, kimi ga moshimo yakunin to shite shusse o kibou suru node aru to sureba, kakunogotoki taido wa konponteki ni machigatte iru. Genzaino kansei oyobi kanri nin'you no jissai wa, aru shu no gyousei jimu ni tokubetsu no kyoumi o yuushi, shitagatte tokushu no chishiki ginou o yuusuru yakunin ga isshou o sono jimu ni sasagetsutsu tekitou ni shusse shiuru youni dekite inai. Imamade ____ tou shichou-chou o shite ita ningen o totsuzen chihou shokugyou shoukai jimu kyokuchou ni shitari, sakujitsu made houseikyoku de houki ritsuan no keishikiteki jimu ni juuji shite ita hito o sangyou gyousei no kyokuchou ni suru you na koto wa genzai no kankai dewa jinjou sahanji de aru. Senjitsu aru igaku hakushi wa sakujitsu made keishichou no shoubou buchou de atta yakunin ga kyuu ni eisei buchou ni naru nowa okashii to iu shushi no koto o shinbun shijou ni kaite orareta ga, genzai no yakunin ni totte wa sou iu koto wa nanra no fushigi mo nai futsuu no kotogara de aru. Aru hito o gakumu buchou to suru baai nimo kesshite sono hitoga kyouiku jimu no shuninsha to shite tekitou de aru ka douka o kangaeru no dewa nai, sono hito o yakunin to shite aru teido ni shoushin saseru hitsuyou ga aru baai ni, tamatama sono hitsuyou naru shoushin o ataeru ni tekisuru chii ga gakumu buchou de areba, honnin no chishiki ginou ikan o towazushite gakumu buchou ni nin'you suru no de aru. Mata aru hito ga furyou shounen no kyouka ni tokubetsu no kyoumi o kanjite shounen shinpansho ni tsutomete ite mo, kansei no kankeijou sono kinmu o tsuzukeru kagiri, aru teido ijou ni kantou mo agarazu houkyuu mo agaru koto o enai. Shitagatte yakunin to shite soutou no shoushin o kibou suru kagiri, isshou o furyou shounen no kyouka ni sasageruyouna kotowa zettaini fukanou de aru. Dakara tokushuno senmonteki chishiki naishi ginou o yousubeki chii demo, kesshite hitsuyouna chishiki naishi ginou o yuusuru yakunin ga sore o shimeru to wa kagiranai node, subete wa tada hitokuri no kankei kara kimerareru no de aru. Dakara tokushu no jimu ni kyoumi o kanjite sono houno senmonka ni naru to, shizen hokani yuuzuu ga kikanai tame, nakanaka shusse dekinai. Sou shite hoka kara hitokuri no kankeijou dondon senmon no chishiki naki yakunin ga uwayaku to shite tennin shite kuru. Dakara shusse to iu mounen o tachikitte otera ni demo haitta ki de nakereba, tokushu gyousei no senmonka ni naru koto wa dekinai no de aru.

Muron kou iu koto ga kanri seido to shite nozomashii kotode nai koto wa iu made mo nai. Subete no gyousei jimu ga jisshitsuteki niwa hikakuteki kyouyou no tarinai zokkanra no shuchuu ni nigirarete, choukan wa tada jishin no shusse o mokuhyou to shitsutsu keishikijou so no ue ni tankikan suwatte iru to iu you na jitsujou ga shouzuru no wa koregatame de aru. Senmonteki chishiki o motanai, sou shite ninki no mijikai choukan wa, shirouto kangae kara itazura ni kouseki o nomi isogu. Shikkuri ochitsuite kiei ni kangaeru ni yotte nomi tekitou ni shori shiubeki jimu ga koko no choukan no kojinteki koumyoushin manzoku no taishoubutsu ni natte jisshitsuteki ni so no seiseki o ageenai. Korede wa karyou to ie domo shin ni mi o irete shigoto o suru ki ni narenai. Hyakugai no moto wa masa ni ko no ten ni sonsuru no de aru ga, genzai no jitsujou wa masa ni ko no toori de aru.

Dakara watakushi wa kono jitsujou ni taishite konponteki kakusei no kuwaerareru koto o kibou shite yamanai no daga, ima wakai hitori no yakunin to shite ko no kankai ni tobikomareta kimi ni taishite wa, tada jitsujou wa kakunogotoki mo no da kara sono tsumori de inai to shusse no samatage ni naruzo to iu chuugen o ataeru no hoka nanigoto mo dekinai. Ko no koto wa heiso kanari risouka de aru kimi ni soutou no shitsubou o ataeru ni chigai nai to souzou suru ga, jijitsu wa jijitsu da kara dounimo naranai. Kimimo iyashikumo shusse o kibou suru kagiri, yume nimo senmonka ni natte wa ikenai. Banji o hiroku katsu asaku rikai subeki de aru. Sukunakutomo rikai shita you na kao o suru jutsu o shugyou subeki de aru. So no tsumori de seizei benkyou shitamae. Sou suru to, doukyou(!) dakara to itte **** ni hirotte kureru senpai ga toki ni arawarenai koto mo arumai. Maa seizei shinbou shite so no toki o machitamae.

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Dai-2 jou oyoso yakunin taranto suru mo no wa houki o tate ni torite keishikiteki rikutsu o iu gijutsu o shuutoku suru koto o yousu.

Houki o tate ni totte rikutsu o iu gijutsu To houritsugaku to wa betsumono de aru. Houritsugaku no you na koushouna gakumon o kenkyuu sezu tomo, houki ni seitsuu shite keishikiteki no rikutsu o ii, umu o iwasezu aite no giron o gekiha shitari youkyuu o shirizokeru gijutsu o shuutoku suru hitsuyou ga aru. Yononaka dewa, tokaku houka bannou no nanno to itte, ikanimo houritsuteki chishiki naishi gijutsu o besshi suru you na koto o iukeredomo, iyashikumo yakunin to shite shusse shiyou to suru kagiri, houki o tate ni toru jutsu ni jukutatsu suru koto o yousuru. Shokun wa kokoromi ni oyakusho o tazunete miru ga ii. Houka shusshinnarazaru yakunin to iedomo, iyashikumo yuunounaru yakunin de aru kagiri, subete kiwamete takumi ni houki o ayatsuru jutsu o kokoroete iruno o hakken suru de arou. Wareware houritsuka no me kara miru to, korera gijutsu de no yakunin no houritsuron wa mottomo houritsugaku kara tooi mono de aru no daga, yakunin nakama dewa aa shita houritsuron ga mottomo yaku ni tatsu node, iyashiku mo yakunin to shite shusse sento suru ijou, subete sono jutsu o shuutoku seneba naranai. Ikani aite no iu koto ga jouri ni kanatte iru to omottemo, youi ni sono mae ni atama o sageru youde wa ikenai. Jourinado wa mushi shite houki ittenbari de aite o nejifusenakute wa ikenai. Doumo ano otoko wa rikutsu bakari konete mo no ga wakaranai, to iwareru you ni naranakereba toutei yakunin to shite shusse shinai.

Dakara, kyou wareware ga oshiete iru youni, mazu shakai ga ari shakai seikatsu ga atte no houritsu de aru, to iu you na kangaekata wa yakunin ni totte kinmotsu de aru. Yoki yakunin wa yoroshiku gainen hougakuryuu ni houki o zairyou to shite narubeku kantan ni toriatsukaeru you na gainenteki hanchuu o youi subeki de aru. Hito no meiwaku nado o kangaete wa ikenai. Choudo guntai de kutsu ya kimo no ni dai chuu shou sanshurui o tsukutte oite muri nimo so no izureka o kisaseru you ni, sou shite so no izure o mo kirenai you na oootoko ya kootoko o heitai ni toranai youni, narubeku kantan na gainenteki keishiki o tsukutte oite, aite no iu koto o muri nimo so no izureka no naka ni oshikomu ka, mata sono izure nimo hairienai you na mono wa zenzen haiseki suru you ni shinakereba ikenai. Oyakusho dewa yoku, konogoro no hougakushi wa doumo houritsu ga dekinakute komaru, to iwareru sou da ga, sono koto koso masani oyakusho hougaku no tokuisei o bakuro suru mono ni hokanaranai node atte, yakunin o kokorozasu hitobito wa yoku kono ten ni ki o tsukeru hitsuyou ga aru.

Ganrai, kanchounai no houki wa kanri no koudou ni taishite kijun o atae, karera no koudou o shite kouheinarashimeru koto o mokuteki to suru mono de aru. Sunawachi houchi shugi no konpon youkyuu ni tekiou suru tame kanri no senshiteki koudou o yokusei suru tame ni seitei sareta mono ga houki de aru. Shitagatte houki no sonsuru tokoro kanri wa kanarazu houki o junshu seneba naranai. Sunawachi houki no sonsuru tokoro karera no koudou wa kanarazu houki ni shitagatte okonawareneba naranai keredomo, houki no fusonzai wa kesshite karera no koudou o fukanounarashimeru mono dewa nai. Shikaru ni genzai no yakunin wa, shibashiba houki no fusonzai o riyuu to shite koudou sore jitai o kyozetsu suru. Watakushi wa sore o konponteki ni machigatte iru to kangaeru. Saiban no rei o totte mite mo, saiban kihan tarubeki houki no fusonzai wa kesshite saiban kyozetsu no riyuu to naru mono dewa nai. Moshimo saibankan ga saiban kihannaki jiken ni tsuite saiban o motomerareta naraba, jiken no jisshitsu o juubun ni shinsa shita ue, kare moshi rippousha nari seba rippou subeki kihan o mizukara kitei shi, kore o kijunto shite saiban o kumi u beki de atte, houki fusonzai no yue o motte saiban o kyozetsu subeki dewa nai. Kono koto wa, kore ni kansuru rironteki setsumei naishi kore ni kansuru saibankan no shukanteki ishiki sore jitai ni iroiro no sai aru nimo kakawarazu, gen ni ippan saibankan ni yotte junshu sarete iru koudou kijun de aru. Shikaru ni genzai ippan no yakunin wa karera ga houkiteki ni koudou suru koto o meizerarete iru koto kara, tadachi ni houki no fusonzai wa koudou no fukanou o imi suruto iu ketsuron o michibikidashite iruyou ni kangaerareru. Karerato iedomo koudou no hitsuyou o kanji, shikamo sono kijun tarubeki houki o hakken shienai baai niwa, jibutsu no seishitsu ni oujite mizukara tekitou naru houki o soutei shitsutsu, kore ni shitagatte koudou shisae sureba ii no de aru. Shikaruni, houki no fusonzai ni yotte tokaku koudou no kyozetsu o riyuuzukeyouto surunoga, genzai no yakunin ippan ni tsuuzuru heifuu de atte, watakushi wa sore o houchi shugi no gokai ni yurai suru monoto shite haiseki shitai node aru.

Rikutsu o itte mireba maa konna koto daga, genzai no oyakusho niwa kesshite tsuuyou shinai rikutsu de aru. Dakara yakunin to shite ima no yo ni shusse shiyou To suru hitobito wa yume nimo konna rikutsu ni kaburete wa ikenai. Narubeku kantan na -- shitagatte mizukara toriatsukai yasui -- gainenteki hanchuu o tsukutte oite banji o TEKIPAKI to shori shiuru nouryoku to dokyou to ga dekinakereba kesshite yoi yakunin niwa narenai. Kore ni hanshite kore ga dekiru you ni naru to, kare wa atama ga ii toka ude ga aru toka iwarete, shusse dekiru you ni naru no de aru.

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Dai-3 jou oyoso yakunin taran to suru mono wa heiso yori nawabari konjou no kan'you ni tsutomuru koto o yousu.

Gakkou dewa, kokka wa mujunnaki ikko no touitsutai de aru, to oshieru. Dakara subete no kanchou wa touitsutai taru kokka no seiji sayou o buntan suru mono to shite kokka mokuteki no tame tagai ni chouwa-teki ni kyoudou subeki mono to kannen sarete iru. Shikashi jissai no yakusho o sou iu mono to kangaete yakunin ni nattara hijou na machigai de aru. Subete no yakusho wa arayuru kikai o riyou shite jibun no nawabari o hirogeyou to doryoku shite iru. So no tame ni jouji sekkyokuteki naishi shoukyokuteki no kengen sougi o yatte iru no ga genzai no yakusho de aru. Karera wa jiko no nawabari o kakuchou shitari iji suru tame ni, hitsuyou ga aru to, kokumin no rieki wa motoyori kokkateki rieki o sura mushi shite nanra habakaru tokoro ga nai. Aru yakusho de nani ka atarashii shigoto o hajimeyou to suru to kanarazuya hoka no yakusho wa shukan jimu no kankei kara iroiro to nankuse o tsukeru. Sou shite sukoshi demo nanika ritoku o eyouto suru. Koto ga suushou no shukan ni kankei suru juuyou jikou de aru to, sore ni kansuru touitsuteki seido o juritsu suru hitsuyou ga ika ni kinkyuu demo, dekiru kagiri sono touitsu serarubeki shinseido o jiko no shukanka ni okitai to iu kibou kara, iroiro tagai ni kakehiki o suru. Soregatame touitsu ga okuretemo nanra kaii suru tokoro ga nai.

Tatoeba, genzai touitsuteki mizuhou no seitei to mizu kankei no gyousei jimu o touitsu suru hitsuyou ga hijou ni ookii nimo kakawarazu, kankei kanchoutaru naimu, nourin, teishin no 3 shou wa izure mo tagai ni kyouchou shite kono touitsu jigyou o susumeru seii o motanai. Nominarazu tatoeba, aru 1shou ga sore ni kansuru junbi jimu o susumeru to, atakamo tekikoku ni taishite gunki o hisuru to onaji you na taido de, chousa shiryou o himitsu ni suru you na koto o suru. Wareware kokumin no me kara mireba, tomodomo ni hitsuyou na shiryou o shuushuu shi tagai ni kyouchou shite, 1nichi mo sumiyaka ni koto o susumete hoshii. Shikaruni, moppara nawabari arasoi ni necchuu suru yakuninra niwa, mattaku sore ga dekinai node aru.

Mata yoku miru jitsurei daga, tatoeba kou kanchou de aru atarashii jimu o hajimeyouto suru to, otsu kanchou kara iroiro to nankuse o tsukeru. Soshite hyoumenjou wa shukan jimu no kankei kara iroiro rikutsu o iu mono no, kekkyoku wa jibun no hou nimo tougai jimu ni kanshite tashou tomo hiyou ga toretari kansei shounin'in o zouka suru koto ga dekireba, sore de dakyou suru you na baai ga hijou ni ooi no de aru.

Kou iu koto o ichiichi rei o agete setsumei suru tokiri ga naishi, mata tashou kankeisha ni kinodoku na ten mo aru kara gutaiteki niwa iwanai ga, sono heigai taru ya youi ni gaibu kara yosou shienai hodo hanahadashii no de aru. Kimi mo kankai no seikatsu ni fukairi shite iku to oioi ni kizukareru ni chigai nai to omou ga, ima kara sono tsumoride kakugo shite inai to tonda shissaku o suru koto ga ariuru. Tashou to nanika kyougi suru baai no gotoki kari nimo dakyou jouho no taido o shimeshite wa ikenai. Man'ichi sonna koto ga aru to jouchou no nawabari seishin o kizutsukete onozukara shusse no samatage ni naru. Tsumaranu koto da ga, yokuyoku ki o tsukenaito ikenai.

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Junshin na wakai yakunin to shite no kimi ni, konna kurai hanashi o suru no wa jitsu ni fuyukai dewa aru. Shikashi kimi mo kanarazu ya shusse no kibou ni moete iru nodarou. Koto ni kimi no ryoushin wa kimi no shusse no 1nichi mo hayakare to kami kakete inotte iru ni chigai nai. Sore o omou to, fuyukai de aru ga, yahari ijou no koto o omimi ni irezaru o enai.

Jitsu o iu to, ima no ____ ga kimira ni taishite kimira ga kitai suru you na kouei aru shourai o yakusoku shite iru ka douka ni tsuite, watakushi wa fukai utagai o motte iru. Shokkou ga tokushu no gijutsu o taitoku subeku doryoku suru you ni, kimira mo onoono tokui to suru tokoro ni seiryoku o shuuchuu shite, yoi gyouseiteki shokkou ni naru you ni doryoku suru hou ga iinokamo shirenai. Sou shite kimira ga so no ki ni natte shusse o dannen shisae sureba, kimira no seikatsu wa kyoukara demo motto akarui mono ni narunokamo shirenai. Tada watakushi wa, ima koko ni kono ten ni tsuite, hakkiri shita koto o kimi ni iie nai no o makoto ni ikanto suru.

(“Kaizou” Shouwa 6 nen 8 gatsugou)

(2006-8-5)