Watashi wa Nippon no minzoku no ue kara ohanashi o moushiagetai to omotteimasu. Tatoeba, anatagata ga hana o oike ni naru, saushita wareware ni geijutsu-teki kanmei o oatae ni narou to suru hana yori mo, motto ubu na hana, shuukyou-teki na hana no hanashi o shite mitai to omoimasu.

8 gatsu no tsukimi, Nippon dewa tsukimi ga zongai atarashii koto no yau ni omotte irasshiyaru kamo shiremasen ga, yononaka no shuukan wa inshou no fukai mono da kara, tsukimi ga kuru to hana o osonae ni naru deshou. Naze tsukimi ni hana o sonaeru ka. Kono hana to tachibana-ikebana to, nani ka kankei ga aru no dewa nai ka to oomoi ni natta koto wa arimasen ka.

Soshite tsukimi no gyouji no kokoro no soko niwa, mukashi kara tsutawatteiru otsukisama o kamisama to kanjiru kokoro ga nokotteiru. Sou iu fuu ni mukashi no hito ga, TSUKUYOMINO-mikoto nado nado iu shinten no ue no kami no kanji to wa betsu ni, tsuki no kami o kanjite ori, sono tsuki no kami ni hana o sashiageru no ga, tsukimi to iu no desu. Tsukimi wa otsukisan no matsuri no koto desu. Sono hana o dou suru ka to iimasu to, are wa konnichi seiyou-shiki no enkai o hirakimasu to, iroiro na hana o kazaru. Sou iu fuu ni, Nippon demo mukashi kara hana o kazatteimasu. Sono shouko niwa konrei no toki, izen niwa doko demo okonatta koto desu ga, ima wa toku ni kofuu na konrei no baai ni shika mikakenaku narimashita. Zashiki ni shimadai o kazatte okimasu. Takasago no jou to uba no kazaritsuke o shita, kono shimadai wa nanika to moushimasu to kore ga enkai no hana to onaji koto nano desu. Shimadai no koto o furuku wa SUHAMA to itteimasu. Mizu no nagarete yotte iru su no koto de, shimadai no katachi ni nanika une une shita nami no yoru sunahama no yousu ga mieteiru kara kou iu no deshou. Kyouto no kofuu na okashi ni "SUHAMA" to iu no ga aru koto wa gozonji deshou. Sau iu kawa no sunahama no yousu o katadotta dai no ue ni, iroiro na mono o kazatta mono desu. Ningyou o kazaru koto mo, shokubutsu o kazaru koto mo arimasu. Sau iu doubutsu-shokubutsu o nosete enkai no seki ni kazaru wake de, edo-jidai no nakagoro made wa, seishiki na enkai no e o miru to, yashiki no chuushin ni SUHAMA ga kazatte arimasu shi, mata, funeyusan no toki nimo SUHAMA no suete aru no ga egaite arimasu. Futsuu wa kusa no hanaki no eda o kazari, baai ni yoru to ningyou o kazarimasu.

De, tsumari, konrei bakari de naku, enkai no toki nimo kazatta no de, kore o kazaru no wa, sore o meate ni shite okyaku ga korareru you ni kazatteoku wake na no desu. Futsuu no enkai da to mae kara shoutai shite tsuretekuru kara, betsu ni tooku kara meate ni kuru hitsuyou wa nai. Nippon no enkai wa oomukashi kara okonawarete imashita. Soushite sono enkai no seishin wa moto wa, motto hakkiri shiteimashita. Mukashi wa kami o mukaeta no desu. Sou iu koto wa kindai no enkai demo sasseraremasu ga, mukashi wa zuibun kawatteita no deshou. Kami ga ten kara orite korareru toki, murazato niwa ika nimo me ni tsuku you ni hana ga taterarete ori, soko o mejirushi to shite orite korareru no desu. Dakara, mukashi no hito wa, meimei no shinkou de jibun jibun no ie e kami ga korareru mono to shinjite, me ni tsuku yau ni hana o kazaru wake na no desu. Shikashi, kami ni yotte sonaeru hana ga kawarimasu. Hana no nai tokiwagi no eda ya, susuki no ho nado mo, me ni tsuku yau ni tatemasu. Basho ni yoru to ningen no sugata o shita mono o tatenakereba naranaku natta tokoro mo arimasu. Karako ya sennin, matawa, shishi ya komainu no zou o tateru to iu fuu ni kawattekimasu. Otsukisan no toki wa mukashi kara kimatte susuki o tateru. Daitai susuki dake de yoi wake desu. Shikashi, sono toki ni, mukashi hodo susuki no naka ni gingami de hatta tsuki no katachi o dashite oita koto ga arimashita. Tsumari, shimadai no ue ni mou hitotsu tsuki o kazaru no de, soko ga anata o omukae shite iru tokoro desu, to iu wake desu. Mukashi wa hijou ni soboku na mono deshita. Edo ni Yoshiwara, Kyouto ni Shimabara, Oosaka ni Shinmachi to iu fuu ni, ookina yuukaku demo, tokidoki no omatsuri o nouson fuu ni okonatta mono desu. 8 gatsu no 15 ya ni naru to tsukimi o okonatteimasu. Yuukaku no tsukimi wa hade na mono de, shimadai no ue ni susuki to gingetsu o dashita arisama no e ga nokotteimasu. Mata sou iu fuu na ko-uta mo arimasu.

Yuukaku desura mo sou shita kofuu na seikatsu o nokoshiteita no desu kara, mashite, inaka dewa kofuu na seikatsu o takusan nokoshiteiru wake desu. Soshite, sono seikatsu o mamori tsuzukete iru uchi ni, ganko ni kotei shite, dou iu wake de suru no ka wakaranai mono ga detekimasu. Sono tame yameteshimau to iu koto mo aru wake desu. Nippon-jin ga donna mono o yoi to suru ka, zen'aku no hyoujun no medo ga tatte ki, mata utsukushii mono no medo ga dekita no de Nippon-jin no konomu utsukushisa no hyoujun ga, geijutsu-teki na bi to wa betsu ni dandan to juritsu shite kita no desu. Tsumari, geijutsu-ka de nai hito ga sentaku shi, dandan atsuraeagete kita wake nano desu. Ima made utagai mo naku sugoshite kita. Sore ga, sensou ni yotte ookina hyoujun ga dokoka e itteshimatta. Ichiban kanashii koto wa, imamade mina sou dan shite yoi warui o handan shite imashita no ni, ima dewa hitori hitori hitobito hitobito ga handan shinakereba naranakunari, Nippon-jin no naka niwa, mattaku yoridokoro o ushinatte shimatta hito mo iru wake desu. Tadashi, kokode dandan chitsujo ga kaifuku shite mairimashita. Douka shite wareware wa hayaku atarashii chitsujo o fukkatsu shitai mono desu. Kou nattara kyou kara demo, wareware wa yoi mono utsukushii mono o shison no tame ni nokosaneba naranai no de, ichiban yoi mono o hyoujun ni toranakereba naranai no desu. Sore o hyoujun to shite, kore kara no seikatsu o tatete yuku hitsuyou ga aru no de, sono imi ni oite, kadou ga sakan ni nareba, soredake, kokumin no bi o hossuru kokoro ga katsudou shite kuru wake desu.

Kami-san ga sora kara korareru matsuri ga, arayuru matsuri ni aru. Matsuri ni manekareru tsuki no kami ga, susuki o kazatta mata furuku wa susuki to gingetsu to o kazatta shimadai o meate ni sato no ie ni korareru wake deshita. Hoka no matsuri no toki mo mite oidedeshou ga, matsuri no toki ookina nobori ga tachi, mata, bon no toki takadourou o tatemasu. Bon no tourou wa ima demo sosen no SHOURYOU ga, sore o meate ni jibun no ie ni kaette korareru. Sore o machimukaete matsuru no da to iu fuushuu no igi o, mukashi no hito wa usu usu nagara shitte ita no desu. Kore wa Nippon no kodai no mama no shinkou desu. Bondana nado mo sau de, go-shouryou ga machigaerareru to ikenai kara betsu ni butsudan kara hanashite oku no desu. Kore wa shimadai no ue ni gingetsu ya ningyou o kazaru no to onaji koto desu. Bondana niwa, nasu kyuuri no tagui de kosaeta uma ga oite aru deshou. Sono hoka, omatsuri no toki no noboribata ga sou desu. Ano baai, sono saki ni konoha (suginoha sakakinoha) ga tsuite imasu. Tsuite inai baai mo arimasu ga, sonna fuu ni henka shita no desu. Kore ga tsuite iru no wa, kami no shirushi to shite ha ga tsuiteiru wake na no desu. Kore o mejirushi ni 4 gatsu no shaka tanjou kai(youkabi) niwa, tsutsuji no hana o tsukemasu. Kami ga manekarete yatte korareru to miteiru no desu. Kami o sasou tame de, tatoeba kaminariyoke no hiraishin to onaji koto ni naru no de, hiyu to shite wa okashii hanashi desu ga, seishin wa onaji deshou. Nippon-jin wa shokubutsu no eda, hana, ha ni yotte kami o mukae, enkai no niwa kara zashiki e sasotta no desu.

Sono zutto furui rei o hitotsu hiite miyou to omoimasu. Ima no tenshi ga sokui nasareta toki ni, daijousai ga okonawaremashita. Kore wa toshidoshi no niinamesai to onaji koto de, sono miyo no ichiban hajime no niinamesai no koto o daijousai to iimasu. Kono toki ni shushu gensei na gishiki ga okonawaremashita ga, sono hitotsu ni kou iu koto ga mukashi wa arimashita. "HEU no YAMA" to iu mono na no desu. Mukashi wa Nippon-yomi ni yonda deshou ga, Heianchou jidai niwa kou onyomi shite imasu. Furuku wa SHIMEYAMA to itteita mono deshou. Kindai ni naru to kore o dasanai koto ni natta no desu ga. Daijousai no toki niwa, kindai ni natte mo sono shigoto o suru kuni o miyako no aru tokoro kara touzai futatsu niwake, daihyousha o dasu no de, shikamo sono kuni no uchi kara tokushu na kuni-gun-mura made kime, kore ga tokubetsu na shigoto, okome o tsukuri, gohan o taki, osake o kamosu, o suru no desu. Kou shita matsuri o okonau goten o daijouguu to ii, kore wa senaka awase ni taterarete, futatsu arimashita. Kono koto o kuwashiku iu to mutsukashiku narimasu no de iimasen ga, matsuri ga chikazuku to, shimeyama o hoka kara hiite kite ryouhou ni tateru. Soremade wa, kougai no kitano no SAIJOU to iu tokoro ni aru sono yama o, daijouguu made hiite kuru no desu. Katahou o YUKI no yama, ima ippou ga SUKI no yama na no desu. Kore wa, matsuri no toki wareware ga hikidasu yatai yamaguruma hokoyama mitai na mono desu. Osoraku kami ga shimete orareru yama to iu koto de, SHIMEYAMA to itta mono deshou. Kami ga soko ni orite korarete ochitsukare, sore kara kami o sore ni onoseshita mama daijouguu made go-annai suru koto ni naru no deshou. Sono shimeyama mo oomukashi wa wakarimasen ga, heianchou ni naru to hade ni nari, yama ya ki no hoka ni sennin ya karako nado o kazatteatta to iimasu. Kami no kudatte korareru yamaguruma o atsuraete kami o mukaeta wake de, shokubutsu o kazatta yama ga, shimeyama datta no desu.

Nippon-jin wa kami o manekiyoseru ni, kami ga irassharu mejirushi o tatenakereba naranu mono to omotteita wake desu. Kami o shite, jibun to niteiru to iu ruiji-kan o okosaseru tame ni, ningyou to ka gingetsu o tate, sonohoka ni hana o kazatte kami no mejirushi ni shita wake desu. Gingetsu no baai wa tsuki no sugata na no desu. Okangae ni nareba, wareware no shuui ni douyou na koto ga omoi ukabi ni naru koto deshou. Matsuri no toki kami o manekiyoseru mejirushi ga hana de, kore wa matsuri no toki niwa nakute naranai mono na no desu. Dakara, hana no sakanai mono demo, saidan ni kazaru mono wa hana to itteimasu. Kono you ni, kazatta hana ga kami to fukai innen ga atta koto o furikaettemiru toki, tachibana ikebana no tagui ni, wareware wa bijutsu kara eru inshou ni nita mono o kanjimasu ga, mou sukoshi shuukyou-teki na imi o kuwaete kangaeta hou ga, hana ga ikite kuru no dewa naika to omoimasu.

Tokoro ga, imamade no hanashi to wa betsu ni, wareware wa itsumo hana ni taishite (hana no sukidenai hito wa inai deshou ga) mutonjaku na hito no kotoba fushizen na hana o tsukuridasu to iu hinan nimo, mimi o katamukenakereba ikemasen. Hana o wareware no konomi no taishou to shite atsukau baai, juubun gijutsu o jinkou-teki ni kuwaetemo yoi to omoimasu ga, aitari kirai ni naru to itta houman-kan o ataesugiru no wa ikemasen. Amari houman ni sugi, kuzurekakatte iru no wa, aru ten kara wa yoi yau da ga, yahari yokunai koto desu. Sono hana no yosa to iu koto o, doko ni hyoujun o oitara yoi ka wa, wareware shirouto no iu koto dewa arimasen. Anatagata hana ni fukai kanshin o omochi ni naru katagata no kangaerubeki koto desu. Mazu kangaerareru koto wa, wareware hakoniwa o atsuraeru, sau iu fuu ni shashin de utsushita toori ni atsuraeru no ga hana no risou de arou ka to iu koto de, sore wa youi ni hitei wa dekinai no desu ga, muron, shashin o tsukuru koto wa geijutsu o tsukuru koto niwa naranai no desu. Sau suru to, mau hitotsu wareware no nakama dewa koushita koto o kangaeru. Wareware no me ni utsuttekuru mono ga zenbu haittekuru no dewa naku, mittsu ka, yottsu no me ni tsuku mono o motte, sore ga torimaiteiru zenbu o arawasu no da. Wareware wa hana o ikeru toki sono tsumori de itara yokarau. Hana to majiriatte iru shizen o arawasu. Itte mireba, kanso ni shizen-kai o daihyou shita mono o tsukuru no da to, mazu konogoro no hito nara kangaeru deshou ne. Hana no arawasu mono wa shizen-kai no torimaiteiru mono o arawasu no de, shuju na shizen no kumiawase ga dekiteiru no ga hondou no sugata da to iu iikata ga, konogoro no hana ni taishite motteiru kangae no ochitsuku tokoro da to omoimasu. Shirouto no wareware no kangae wa machigatte iru kamo shiremasen. Kau iu fuu ni hana no michi no hito no kokoro o suisatsu suru no wa warui deshou ka.

Tokoro ga, watashi wa mau sukoshi hoka no koto o kangaete orimasu. Uta ya haiku no ue dewa, sore to chigau koto ga arimasu. Masaoka Shiki to iu hito ga atte, haiku tanka no ue de ookina shigoto o shiteimasu ga, sono Shiki ga bannen ni natte tsukutta ku ni kou iu no ga arimasu.

Fuji no hana Nagou shite ame furan to su

Keitou no Juushigo-hon mo arinubeshi

Kore niwa sanpi ryouron ga arimashita ga, dochira mo hondou wa shiki no kokoro o tsukan dewa inakatta no desu. Shiki no me no mae de juushigo-hon no keitou ga aki no fuukei o tsukutteiru dake de aru. Tsukutta kanjin no koto dake o itteokeba sore o yomu hito ga sono rensou o kuwaete sore o chuushin ni, sono hito jishin no rensou no hani ni oite, enchou nari, naiyou-ka shite iki, fuji no hana dake, keitou dake o yonda no dewa nai koto o kanjisaseru to iu hito ga ooi ga, watashi wa osoraku sou dewa nai to omoimasu. Sono ku wa, fuji no hana to keitou igai no nani mo itteinai, soko ni ku no omoshirosa ga aru no desu.

Mata, Bashou no ku ni tsugi no yau na mono ga arimasu.

Kani ga ya wa Koebi ni majiru ITODO kana

Bashou mo jiman shite ita ku de "Kani no ie ni yadotteiru to ITODO ga naiteiru. Soko ni koebi ga hoshihirogete aru. Sono naka de naiteiru ITODO, sono kani no ie." to iu dake no koto de, sore ni, "Aki no hi ga tetteiru" to ka, "Aki no sabishisa ga sokusoku to mi ni shimite kuru." to iu fuu ni tsukekuwaete toku koto ga attara, watashi wa sore wa sou dewa nai to iu deshou.

Ume wakana Mariko no yado no tororojiru

Kore mo, "Ume ya wakana no koro ni, Toukaidou o tabishite Mariko no yado de tororojiru o sutteiru." to iu no de, ume to wakana to, tororojiru no tada mittsu no aru dake no chiisana tenchi na no desu. Sono hoka nani mo iranai. Kore ni tsukekuwaete tokou to suru no wa machigai de aru.

Watashi wa choudo kono seishin hoka ni nanimono womo irenai shou-sekai, junsui na sekai, sou iu shou-sekai no sonzai o kangaeru tokoro ni, Nippon no geijutsu no ishoku ga aru ga, hana no baai demo onaji de wa naika to omoimasu. Hiroi sekai o anji suru kangaekata dewa naku, ataerareta zairyou dake de sore igai ni hirogarazu, sore de michimichita goku kanso na sekai o katachidukutteiru, soko ni sabi ga aru no desu. Watashi wa sabi o soushita goku-heibon na kangaekata de kangaeteimasu. Soshite sabi wa kongo wareware no kokoro no hitotsu no shigeki na no desu ga, shikashi, tsuneni sabita hana bakari kangaete ite wa ikemasen. Wabisuke no tsubaki ga, ano sasayakana tsubomi no naka ni nanimono mo naku, hisoyakani fukureteiru aaiu shou-sekai sore ni chikai mono nano desu. Ga, tomokaku, sabi o kanjiru no wa, Nippon-jin ga goku-wazuka no zairyou de, jibun dake no sekai o tsukuru koto no dekiru shuukan ga aru kara da to omou no desu. Sore o hokano hito ni misete, hokano hito nimo sono chiisana sekai no yosa o kanjiru sama ni michibiku to iu michi ga aru no desu. Kou iu ikikata wa, seikatsu no zenmen dewa nai ga, tashou demo hito o oshieyou to shite iru hito no, toki niwa motsu koto ga dekinakereba naranu shinkyou da to omoimasu.

Hana wa osoraku, kongo wa soushita kangae ni yotte susunde ikubeki mono de wa nai ka to omou no desu. Sousureba, hana no michi no mirai mo, akarui to omou no desu. Moshi sonoten, sudeni kaiketsu ga tsuite imashita naraba, watashi no hanashi wa utoi hanashi to shite waratte moratte yoi. Sore ni shite mo, nanika no sankou ni narimashita naraba, saiwai da to omoimasu.

(2006.5.6)