Ningen ga shinuru mae, ataerareta jumyou ga owari ni chikazuita toki wa, sono ningen no bunsouou ni kanzen na soubou ni toutatsu suru no de arou to omou.

Kanzen na soubou to itta dake dewa nan no koto ka wakaranu ga, sono imi wa, yousuru ni sono hito no kao ni ataerareta zairyou o motte shite wa, kore ijou rippa na katachi wa tsukurenai to iu genkai no koto o iu no de aru.

Watashi wa tokitama jibun no kao o kagami ni mite, sono amarini matomari no nai koto ni aisou ga tsukiru koto ga aru. Watashi no kao o mazu gaman no dekiru teido ni totonoeru tame niwa watashi wa ha o kuishibari, miken ni shiwa o yosete, kaojuu no kinniku o kinchou sasete atakamo kenkagoshi ni naraneba naranu. Shikashi nirokujichuu sonna kao bakari o shite kuraseru mono dewa nai.

Osoraku hitori de bonyari shite iru toki wa, dounimo darashi no nai kao o shite iru no de arou.

Sono toki no jibun no kao o souzou suru to chiyotto yuutsu ni naru.

Kidottari, sumashitari shite inai toki demo, itsu, doko kara demo juubun kanshou ni tae eru kao ni naretara jiyuu de anshin de ii kokoromochi darou to wa omou ga, tanin kara mite rippa na kao to omowareru hito demo, honnin no mi ni nareba, angai fuan na mono kamo shirenai.

Watashi ga imamade sesshita nippon jin de ichiban kanshin shita kao wa shinda Kishida Ryuusei shi de aru ga, sono amari nimo shinkeishitsu na genkou wa, sekkaku tairikuteki ni dekiagatta youbou no kachi o sonzuru you de ikanimo oshiku omowareta. Chikagoro wa seiyou kabure no ryuukou kara ippan no bi-ishiki wa futae-mabuta o konomu you de aru ga, amari hakkirishita futae-mabuta wa seishinteki na in'ei ga kanjirarenaku amai bakari de mumi-kansou na mono de aru. Touyou-teki na fukami ya aji wa hitoe-mabuta moshikuwa hakkirishinai futae-mabuta ni ari, nagaku nagamete akinai no wa yahari kono shu no kao de aru.

Chikagoro bakana ningen ga shujutsu wo shite hitoe-mabuta kara futae-mabuta ni tenkou suru rei ga aru ga, mottainai hanashi de aru. Soremo hontou ni utsukushiku nareru nara madashimo de aru ga, shujutsu go no kekka o miru to taigai tetsuya naki-akashita ato no you na me ni natte shikamo honnin wa tokui de iru kara odoroku.

Ittai isha to iu shoubai wa dou iu shoubai de aru ka.

Jibun no shoubai no honshitsu o yoku kangaetemitara konna hatakechigai no houmen ni made te o daseru wake no mono dewa arumai.

Jinsei no bi ni kansuru mondai wa subete bijutsu ka no ryoubun de aru. Sono bijutsu ka to iedomo kami no tsukutta nikutai ni te o kuwaeru nado to iu sen'etsu wa yurusarenai.

Shigoto no honshitsu ga isasaka mo, bi ni kankei naku, shitagatte bi ga nandaka shiri mo shinai isha ga orokanaru wakamono o damashite minikui kao o koshiraeage, shikamo kane o totte iru no de aru.

Umareta mama no kao to iu mono wa donna ni minikuku te mo minikui nari no chouwa ga aru.

Isha no te ni kakatta kao to iu mono wa, muzan ya, kore wa mou kono yo no mono dewa nai.

Moshi yononaka ni biyoujutsu to iu mono ga aru to sureba, sore wa seishin teki kyouyou igai niwa nai de arou.

Ganmen ni yadoru kyouyou no bi kurai fukashigi na mono wa nai.

Seishinteki kyouyou wa katachi no nai mono de aru. Shitagatte me ni mieru douri ga nai. Shikashi sore ga kao ni yadotta shunji ni sore wa hitotsu no zoukei-teki na bi to shite gojin no kokoro ni furete kuru no de aru.

Mata seishinteki kyouyou wa ningen no kowane o sae kae-eru.

Wareware wa rinshitsu de hanasu michi no hito no koe o kiite hobo dono teido no kyouyou no hito ka o sassuru koto ga dekiru.

Mottomo toki tama reigai ga aru.

Tatoeba watashi no shitteiru boushi no baai de aru.

Sono kao wa Arishima Takerou hyuu no INTERI no kao de aru ga sono koe wa INTERI no koe dewa nai.

Watashi wa ano kao kara ano koe ga deru no o kiku to omowazu minoke ga yodatsu omoi ga suru.

Omou ni kono hito no kako wa yohodo nezuyoi fukou ni mushibamarete iru no de arou.

Watashi wa kanarazushimo jibun no kao ga utsukushiku aritai to wa negawanai ga, shikashi sono amari ni mo ika no gotoki henpeisa niwa iyakega sashite iru.

Semete jibun no ko wa ima sukoshi rippa na kao de are to negatta ga, sekkaku nagara watashi no ko wa watashi no warui tokoro o kotogotoku mohou shite iru you de aru. Dakara watashi wa ko ni taishite isasaka sumanu you na kimochi o idaite iru.

Shikashi watashi no kao mo watashi no shinuru mae ni nareba, kore wa kore nari ni mou sukoshi shikkuri to ochitsuki, ima yori wa zutto anteikan o ete kuru ni soui nai.

Dakara watashi wa kagami o mite jibun no kao no mikanseisa o satoru goto ni, jibun no shiki wa mada mada tooi to omotte anshin suru no de aru.

(2006.3.19)